I don't know what I want to write, but I know I want to write.
I was busy during this whole week, since I had many lessons, and hardly had spare time. At the same time, there were many works which in robot team to be done, and the old member will check what we new members whether had all works done before Sunday. If not, maybe I would quit the robot team. In fact, it is Saturday 0 a.m. now, and I have just finished three fifth, so I can nearly sure I will not finish the job before deadline. Is that means I will quit the robot team? Yeah, maybe, but I don't think I will quit by force. But who knows.
I have to admit that writing in English is very difficult and slow for me. My English is poor, I want to improve my English, so now I am writing in English in my blog. Oh I have digressed from main subject, so let's continue.
Actually, I have gradually felt it boring in the robot team, and the degree is becoming deeper and deeper day by day. In my previous blogs I wrote that I longingly wanted to join the robot team and I was definitely sure I would learn many things in it. I did have learned many things in the robot team, for example, I have learned how to use various tool to make a thing which is painted in a paper, and I have learned how to control the robot by code. So to speak, I learned something which I could not learn from the book. However, I am gradually losing my interest in the robot team. There are many reasons, but I don’t exactly know the main reason, or, maybe it is various reasons that make me tired of it.
First, I love free, and I hate restraint. I want to do what I want, rather than what I am assigned. During these three weeks, I would go to the robot team if I had spare times, or even in my class times. Sometimes I didn’t want to go to the robot team, because I want to do something I would like to do at that time. But I had to go to the robot team, because I have assignment to do and there was a deadline. Second, I am not doing what I am really interested in in the robot team. At present I just do some job which contains comprehending the code controlling the robot which was made by the last robot team, and programming my code to control the robot. I felt curious about that at the beginning, and I still feel it interest now, but I must say I don’t want to do that; what I really want to do at present is design circuits and learn more about electrical engineering.
I nearly wanted to leave the robot team when I knew that my college had a program called “Information-Technology Talent Program” which is a program everyone can apply to participate in to learn how to do research and finally do a research by one’s own. It is what I want! So I quickly applied to participate in a team which is doing digital to analog conversion and SoC design. I hope I can join that team.
What is the most important things in one’s life? I think it is happiness and unrestrained. I don’t want to give up easily and of course I hate give up. But considering it conscientiously, if abandon means throw away a bag which you don’t want to carry on the back and pick up a new one to continuing the journey, will you still hesitate and cease to advance? I think most person will choose the new bag.
Whether or not, have a happy day and try your best to make yourself progress is the most essential thing. And if you steadily and surely live your every day, you will be astonished by what you have done when you look back.